Came back with a vengance

Everything hurts
My heart
My chest
My breath
How do I tell them I don't know
Why I shut in
Can't open up
I don't even want to live
And I'm supposed to work to be happy
But it's hard
And I'm scared
I can't remember the last time
I didn't want to cry
And I'm just holding on
To things I romanticize
And if I'm going to destroy myself
Then, by god, the razor can do it first

And you
It hurts to say this
But please stay away
You're going to make me break
Again
Why did you do this
It was never a game to me
And I'm not mad
And I want to be your friend
I think
But I don't know what I want anymore
And I think it's your fault

But it's mine
I know that
I still want to drive away
And hope to look back
With someone close behind