Straight up though

So I'm babysitting right and the tiny little ones are asleep so I'm basically just waiting for their parents to get home which is all good I'm glad they can go to their concert thing but I'm super bored even though

• They have two cats and about an hour ago I discovered I am very allergic to cats like, who knew
• I have chatting with "the bae" to look forward to but honest to goodness I get super uncontrollably overanalyze-y and insecure when I don't talk to him for a couple of days and it's a super huge problem
• I have my phone which means I can text my people but nah

So yeah I stand by my previous posts meaning suicide is still a very viable option I'm thinking about. I do love how it sounds so calm on paper but in my head it is kind of like, in fifty different fonts and sizes and screaming and whispering and normal talking all at once. It's a fun time.